Wednesday, September 26, 2012

Absolutely Horrified

I just watched this movie on Netflix called The Final. The premise of the movie is that these outcasts kidnap their classmates who have been torturing them since grade school, chain them up in a house in the middle of the woods, and punish them for their crimes. Now, I read the description and was genuinely interested in this movie because that sounds like it's got a good message, it's sadistic, but could really have a psychological element that deepens the plot.
Yeah, no.
I've watched a lot of horror films lately, mainly because I just now discovered that I actually enjoy them (never forsake something you've never tried, next week it's gonna be brussel sprouts). And I've seen some pretty crazy and truly sadistic movies (American Psycho, Skulls, Don't Be Afraid of the Dark, House At The End of the Street, Cabin in the Woods, Saw I-V... ...), but this is the first time that I have truly been disgusted by one.
First of all, it is kids literally just shooting each other with cattle guns, cutting off each other's fingers, paralyzing each other, and stripping each other's faces of skin ever-so-slowly. Just the literal images of these things are vomit-worthy, but when you think about the psyches of the 18 year olds that are forcing their classmates to do this (oh, and then they shoot each other in the head and commit suicide), it's just vile.
I completely understand the fascination with horror that we seem to have; it makes us feel more alive if we see others die, especially when it's in the most gruesome of ways, but really, do we have to show kids maiming other kids just for retribution? Do we really need to put more fuel in the fire that is bullying and give ideas to the bullied? Now I am 100% on the side of the bullied (future teacher after all), but society can't keep giving these kids who have been severely damaged by bullies ways to act out their anger. But I guess that's just one of my soap boxes, so forgive me my ranting.
Moral of the story, don't watch The Final (or do, if you're into that kind of stuff, just be forewarned).

Monday, September 24, 2012

Finding Peace in Odd Places

D'you know that feeling of peace people get when they stare off into the sunset or the horizon on the beach? You know, that moment when you feel like you've found your purpose in life, when you've found complete contentedness? I know it's weird, but I never really got the whole sunset/beach/stare-out-into-the-ocean thing. Sure, it's beautiful and great to appreciate for a moment and take a picture, but peace, no, I don't find it there. The truth is I find it in watching movies, and yes, television. Whether it be some blockbuster like Hunger Games or Batman, or some indie movie that no one ever saw, I find in it some piece of myself that I can never seem to translate into my reality.
Ok, I just finished this movie on Netflix called The Forger. Now, it came out this year and has Josh Hutcherson and Hayden Panitiere in it, but most likely no one who doesn't have Netflix, or doesn't watch the same movies I do, has never (and let's be frank, will never) hear about this movie. It's a low budget film with a story line that really isn't great for the masses, but to me, it's somewhere for me to get away. Movies and TV have always been an escape for me, as well as books, but watching this movie tonight, I realized just how much I depend on this outlet for my curiosity of the world. Now, I'm not a social  person (c'mon, I'm writing a blog probably no one's reading at nine o'clock at night on a Monday about finding peace in a crappy movie, if it isn't obvious to you I'm not social, you're worse than I am) so I tend to live vicariously through the characters I watch and read. It's weird to me that people have actually experienced the things I watch on TV; I know they do, but since I've had such limited experience, it feels weird to admit just how naive I really am.
I don't know, maybe (probably) this is just me rambling on about a stupid feeling of joy I get from watching way to much TV, but every time I go see a movie at the theater (which, as you might guess, is a lot) I sit in the seat and when the previews start I think to myself "this feels like home to me, maybe this is where I belong." I know it's not, I want to teach (but that's too much information you don't care about), but I feel sometimes that if I could just have that feeling all the time, or just once outside the theater or classroom, I would be somewhere that I may never leave. If, just once, I could feel that in a social setting, or with another person, they would either end up my husband or my best friend for life. But again, that's probably too much information about myself.
I haven't really been on here for a while (like anyone cares, but I guess I do, so there you go) and I just recently got some new music. Of course it's pretty popular music anyway, but I do want to say something about the new Matchbox Twenty album: so awesome. My sister bought it because she likes that song "She's So Mean" and I mean I do to, it's a great song, but I was listening to the album and "Radio" came on and I just thought it was such a cool idea. It's talking about how their lives are related so much to what they hear on the radio and I wholeheartedly buy into that theory because I'm so attached to music as well. I read a quote somewhere that said "I believe in using songs to say things" and I've adopted that theory, though I really don't have very many people to say things to, so that gets kinda hard. My sister gets really mad when I keep putting song lyrics on my Facebook because they describe how I feel and other people think they're coming from me.
Ok, definitely too much information given tonight, but if you've made it this far, I congratulate you. You are a true trooper and I kinda wish I could know you because you're awesome in my opinion. Thanks for listening to my incessant rambling. Comments are welcome.